不知不觉

不知不觉，我所读的课程已经剩下一年的时间。就连到现在还真是不知道我本人为什么会在这里，好像做梦一样~ 哈哈哈！来到KL的生活，自己一个人离开家乡的生活，真的充满了试探、考验，真的是很很很复杂。若不是神给我的坚持，我可能就没有今天。面对着一个又一个的困难，几乎想要放弃，有时甚至感觉快要窒息。我选择不要放弃我自己，因为神也不曾放弃过我。

 不知不觉，我已经20岁咯~ 很多东西要懂得自己去处理，要懂得自己解决问题。成长的过程中，好多事情要学，更加明白什么是人生，也知道真正的快乐是不能用金钱来衡量的。小的时候，常常以为如果有钱多好，可以买很多很多东西给爸爸妈妈，可以让身边的人开心。是！的确，有些东西是靠钱才可以买到，才能满足。但我知道耶稣是第一，知道在神凡事都能，金钱是带不走的。每当我单独一人想着想着，真的只要有耶稣，有家人朋友在身边，那真的是我这一生最大的福气。

不知不觉，我的父母也老了许多。有时突然间会接到妈妈的电话，一直问为什么身体的那个部分会痛，什么原因造成？其实什么问题都没有，只因为担心健康问题，而一直怀疑自己有病。我很庆幸，从小我有很支持我的父母，愿神每时每刻眷顾着他们，平平安安地度过每一天。

我……很感恩。神一直对我那么好。即使犯再多的错，神从来不计较，还一直提醒我、鼓励我。愿我这接下来的一生，都要荣耀主的名！

“我是在地上作寄居的，求你不要向我隐瞒你的命令。”（诗篇119：19）

最后一天 The Last Day

 

Went out with my leader last week. (Took this photo when she went to changing room. Haha...too free dy.)

Wooohooo...tomorrow is my last day of FINAL EXAM for semester 2. Some of my friends from Kuching keep on asking me when i will be back, i didn't let them know. Muahahahaha...just asked them to guess. For this post, i'm not going to say when, but just a simple post. =P So, tomorrow i will be sitting for OSCE (practical) exam, is the LAST DAY!!! =D But......after that i still have to go for posting at hospital. Not so fast to go back to hometown, not so late too, just almost. Last few weeks were study weeks, i mean exam weeks. Hehehe...

Erm........that's all. I'm going back soon! May God guide me all the time, and bless others. Time really flies, appreciate each other all the time. Although something seems like not to be right sometimes, but remember God's love will never change, He promised to be our refuge and strength. =)

不一样 Different

来到吉隆坡这个地方，非常不一样，非常陌生……就连我宿舍的朋友，也全都是西马人。这里除了车子全都驾得特别快之外，人也比较爽快，意思是有话就直说！哈哈……的确，我发现到这一点，当然不是每个啦～　我本身是不太习惯这里的空气，皮肤也变糟了许多。咳～无奈……　呵呵……不用紧，可以慢慢适应的吧！来到这里，也像是失去了家的安全感一样，一切必须靠神给我力量，给我支柱。虽然我不久前刚从国民服务回古晋，习惯离开家的感觉，也不会因为离开而哭。但想念，依然还是有的。慢点再跟你们介绍我的宿舍，生活环境，现在所去的教会，学业的难度（其实也不是很很很难。=P）以及身边的朋友（许多都是无聊人物，但还不错。）。我相信神会安排我一切的需求，我知道他必定看顾我，来指引我……　=)

将要离开的滋味… The Taste of Going to Leave...

I know i will miss Kuching. I know i will...... Thess few days, i'm busying packing and preparing everything which i need to use in KL. Feel like going to leave this place soon. Ya, it's true. I'm going to leave my home, leaving Kuching soon. Arrrrghhh...hard to explain the feeling, but i really feel like crying now. Especially when i'm listening to my pastor's song, “未曾忘记” Never Forget...one of the sentence in the lyrics, “未曾忘记你的手勉强挥挥手，长大离开的时候……”. I can feel the feeling of leaving my parents and my friends, and i'm going to taste it soon. However, no matter how i miss, no matter how i insist to stay, i know i still have to go. My parents are quite worry about me, for none of my relatives are living in KL. So when problems and difficulties come, i'm the one who is going to face all of it, but i know God will help me for whatever situations i'm in. Although i'm coming back to Kuching on September for one week only, but honestly, that's quite a long time for me. I think i will be waiting for the day...longing for the day i come back to Kuching. I'm here to say thank you to everyone who bless and gave advises to me. Some of the words really had touched my heart. I will remember. I miss this place...... These are the taste, the feelings of leaving. Just like i left already, but not really, leaving soon. T.T Really pity my brother, he doesn't has anyone to play with. If my sister and I are in Kuching, sure we 'fight' everyday. Hahahahahahahahahaha... =)

 I WILL MISS......

 I will miss......

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I will really really miss the time i spent with my family. =)

AND

I WILL MISS......

 I will miss......

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 I will miss.......

 I will really miss the time i spent with all th church's friends, leaders and pastor. =)

 I will still miss my NS friends. =)

But still......

 I have to ask God to guide and lead me... Guide me, Lord...

How to make a right decision?

Thank God that i came back home safely yesterday from Kem Putra Sentosa, and i thank God that i still have time to read Bible and write diary in the kem. When i've time, i will think of something. Almost everyday got special and interesting things happen...either sad or happy, just feel good when i gone through it. Other than that, I will think of my future career...especially before i sleep every night. Really HARD to make a right decision, i keep on asking God to let me know the answer, otherwise there will be not enough time to change. For my parents, i know they want me to have a good career, and i know that they don't want me to always concentrate in serving in church, so they choose to send me to KL to study nursing. If i stay in Kuching, for sure my study results won't get well. Those are what they think, and also my sister. Yes, i did thought of that, but i need a confirmation from God first. Serving is a good thing. I know i didn't did well in Form 5...as they all think that just b'cos of church serving. My answer is NO! So which way should i choose? What should i do? Nursing or Form 6? If nursing, Sime Darby or Masterskills??? *Actually nursing is not what i wanted to study.* Hehe... Erm... Just...

I need time to pray...... 

I have to make a right decision...... 

I know God will show me the right way......

Count Down to SPM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh... i have printed the timetable for SPM 2009 just now. Wow~ know what? The first 6 days are full. I mean those subjects which i'm going to sit for this year SPM. Even Add Maths is on the 6 days. My goodness... really can't touch this laptop again. This will be my last blog post before SPM.(think so) My parents start to be more strict to my study and also church meetings...actually since last year they were strict. Hahaha...but i didn't really tried my very best. So now i'm going to try my very best to get GOOD RESULTS. Even though i can't go for Friday Youth Fellowship for October and November until SPM end, but i will keep my mind with God. Pray at home then...... The last day of my SPM test is on 10/12/09. WoooHooOoo...freedom! But...don't think of it now. I need God to guide me and change my life. I am really NOTHING without God. Now, count down to SPM - left 64 days, 2 months to go. I have to improve a lot if i wanna get scholarship to further my study. I think nobody know about my dreams, except my mum and my sister and God. I know God knows the most. Hehehe...so that will be a secret. Whether my dreams will really come true, it's up to me that i really study hard or not. Of course, i have to study smart too, but study hard is better. Everything is in God's hands. For making decisions, God gives us chance to decide. For those who fear the Lord, God will instruct them in the way chosen for them. There is always hope if we don't give up easily and with a little trust and faith in God.

"God bless those who bless others..." We have to learn to bless others...... =)

What a cute photo, they are Justina's brother & sister & my house old gate.

Okay see you then...after SPM. ^^

FiNaL ExAm

Final exam starts today. Must get good results this time..................

I wish everyone all the best in exam yea~ God bless... ^^

May our desire results will be fulfill..........but of course we must study hard. Hehe....

功课

功课很多啊！不过，我相信神必定在所有的难题上帮助我~ 加油！为主来梦想吧！让我们都有一颗为主跳动的心！！！啊们！！！！！！！！

Prayer...

Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them.

(Mark 11:24)

考试。。。and...

这几天总是忙着复习。。。
这次的考试算是很重要的啦。。。有时忙到～真的感到很疲惫，真的很累。有时候甚至想睡个好觉都不能。满脑子都是“考试”的字。。。有时候又感觉自己很懒散。。。
还有，昨晚没去教会。。。真的很遗憾。听到我朋友说当晚做什么时，真的是感到很可惜。咳。。。让神来带领我吧! 我不想再依靠我自己了。。。依靠肉体真的是不行。必须靠主，才能做好每一件事! 最近要开始对神更认真，更加火热。。。但魔鬼也会想办法更加阻止。这就是昨晚所分享的咯，也是我最近的情况。呵呵。。。在凡事上，一定要认真! 啊们!

“我知道怎样处卑贱，也知道怎样处丰富，或饱足、或饥饿、或有余、或缺乏，随事随在，我都的了秘诀。我靠着那加给我力量的，凡事都能做。”（腓4：12－13）

是很好的经文。。。也是一首歌，要永远记得!