I know i will miss Kuching. I know i will...... Thess few days, i'm busying packing and preparing everything which i need to use in KL. Feel like going to leave this place soon. Ya, it's true. I'm going to leave my home, leaving Kuching soon. Arrrrghhh...hard to explain the feeling, but i really feel like crying now. Especially when i'm listening to my pastor's song, “未曾忘记” Never Forget...one of the sentence in the lyrics, “未曾忘记你的手勉强挥挥手，长大离开的时候……”. I can feel the feeling of leaving my parents and my friends, and i'm going to taste it soon. However, no matter how i miss, no matter how i insist to stay, i know i still have to go. My parents are quite worry about me, for none of my relatives are living in KL. So when problems and difficulties come, i'm the one who is going to face all of it, but i know God will help me for whatever situations i'm in. Although i'm coming back to Kuching on September for one week only, but honestly, that's quite a long time for me. I think i will be waiting for the day...longing for the day i come back to Kuching. I'm here to say thank you to everyone who bless and gave advises to me. Some of the words really had touched my heart. I will remember. I miss this place...... These are the taste, the feelings of leaving. Just like i left already, but not really, leaving soon. T.T Really pity my brother, he doesn't has anyone to play with. If my sister and I are in Kuching, sure we 'fight' everyday. Hahahahahahahahahaha... =)
I WILL MISS......
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I will really really miss the time i spent with my family. =)
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I WILL MISS......
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I will really miss the time i spent with all th church's friends, leaders and pastor. =)
I will still miss my NS friends. =)
But still......
I have to ask God to guide and lead me... Guide me, Lord...
Thank God that i came back home safely yesterday from Kem Putra Sentosa, and i thank God that i still have time to read Bible and write diary in the kem. When i've time, i will think of something. Almost everyday got special and interesting things happen...either sad or happy, just feel good when i gone through it. Other than that, I will think of my future career...especially before i sleep every night. Really HARD to make a right decision, i keep on asking God to let me know the answer, otherwise there will be not enough time to change. For my parents, i know they want me to have a good career, and i know that they don't want me to always concentrate in serving in church, so they choose to send me to KL to study nursing. If i stay in Kuching, for sure my study results won't get well. Those are what they think, and also my sister. Yes, i did thought of that, but i need a confirmation from God first. Serving is a good thing. I know i didn't did well in Form 5...as they all think that just b'cos of church serving. My answer is NO! So which way should i choose? What should i do? Nursing or Form 6? If nursing, Sime Darby or Masterskills??? *Actually nursing is not what i wanted to study.* Hehe... Erm... Just...
Since i know the song Dalam Yesus, Tuhan Peduli/Allah Peduli, Bapa yang Kekal, S'perti yang Kau Ingini and blablabla..., i keep on searching for more Indonesia christian songs. And I discover that they are quite nice and meaningful......
Tuhan Peduli/Allah Peduli - Jonathan Prawira
Banyak perkara yang tak dapat ku mengerti
Mengapakah harus terjadi
Di dalam kehidupan ini
Satu perkara yang ku simpan dalam hati
Tiada satu pun 'kan terjadi
Tanpa Tuhan peduli
Tuhan mengerti Tuhan peduli
Segala persoalan yang kita hadapi
Tak akan pernah dibiarkannya
Ku bergumul sendiri
S'bab Tuhan mengerti
Di dalam hidupku ini
Kau s'lalu memberi rancangan terbaik
Oleh Karena kasih
Bapa, sentuh hatiku, ubah hidupku
Menjadi yang baru
Bagai emas yang murni
Kau membentuk bejana hatiku
Bapa, ajarku mengerti sebuah kasih
Yang selalu memberi
Bagai air mengalir
Yang tiada pernah berhenti
KasihMu ya Tuhan
Tak pernah berhenti
Bapa Yang Kekal - Jeffry S. Tjandra
Kasih yang sempurna telah
Ku t'rima dariMu
Bukan kar'na kebaikanku
Hanya oleh kasih karuni Mu
Kau pulihkan aku, Layakkan ku
Tuk dapat memanggilMu, Bapa
Kau b'ri yang ku pinta
Saat ku mencari, ku mendapatkan
Ku ketuk pintuMu, dan Kau bukakan
S'bab Kau Bapaku
Bapa yang kekal
Tak kan Kau biarkan
Aku melangkah hanya sendirian
Kau selalu ada bagiku
S'bab Kau Bapaku
Bapa yang kekal
